I have felt very spent by men lately. I feel like most men are just fake and lie, and granted I realize that sometimes I can play a pretty mean game on these men at the same time I always give them a certain level of respect. Let me clarify my game though; I am not quite ready for a serious relationship, so instead of settling down with one I keep a bunch around and date many at the same time. I just can't seem to find someone who fits what I want. There have been, maybe, two men I have seen that I would want to be exclusive with but in the end, I end up just waiting.
The latest was a man I was set up to date. Every time him and I get together and hang out, we have a great time. We seem to have a lot to talk about and we end up laughing and joking most of the night. I noticed though that he has a consistency of flaking out and creating these crazy excuses. Granted they may be true but for the most part they seem pretty drawn out. I do enjoy his company though, but for that main reason I could never let it go to the next step with him. Last night's excuse was one that just made my night horrible. He had been texting and calling all day to make sure we were still going on the date and to confirm the time to come. So, after I got back from my run I hurried to get ready in time for when he was suppose to show up. 9:30 pm goes by, 30 minutes late....So I send him a text. Nothing for a while then a phone call at around 10:00 saying that his grandma's alarm went off at her house and he is just running by to check it out and then he will be on his way. 10:30 goes by haven't heard from him so I shoot him a text just letting him know that I hope everything is ok but I am going to try and get some stuff done because I'm going out of town tomorrow. He shoots me another text saying how sorry he is and that after the cops leave he will call me and let me know if he can make it out here. NOT once the rest of the night did I receive a text, nothing.
This is just one of many of his excuses. His last excuse was that all three of his cars broke down. The weird thing is we still have gone on two dates but I have this weird feeling that maybe he has a girlfriend or something he is hiding. I will still be his friend, but needless to say, I will probably not schedule another date with him.
I now feel as though trusting someone is just a horrible idea. I spent a weekend back with this one guy just hanging out with mainly him. He mainly hung out with me and took care of me over my birthday weekend. Him and I have had our times together over a year ago and every time we hang out and I leave the next thing i know he is back with his girlfriend. It's absolutely ridiculous. At least for my sake it is something I learned about him rather quickly. Apparently he is an egotistical musician who thinks he is better than everyone. Sadly I think that is what attracted me to him in the first place, how strong and sure of himself he was, but I also don't like being the go-to girl with things get bad for him or because he is lonely.
So basically after the last few weeks of just disappointment after disappointment, I think I may take a break from the dating world for a bit. Well, at least the expectations of the dating world.